Can I start by saying that it’s 79 degrees out right now? No? Because everyone in Wisconsin and elsewhere Wintry will kill me? Okay. I take it back. Not true at all.
Besides, there is work to be done. Endless. Endless.
But there is coffee. And Pilot Precise V5 black pens and clean notebook paper. Anything can be done! One thing at a time.
I recently finished what is unofficially called my third draft of the script and actually sent it out to people. Terrifying. Sent it to actors with the advance warning that it will be different a month from now, and sent it to a dear friend who speed read it (what on earth is the past tense of that? “sped read”? “speed readed”?? “read it quickly” fine, that works). She read it and reported back to me within an hour of receiving it and overpraised it, as dear friends do – but it needs crazy work and it’s far too long. So therefore I will fix it up and then harass her again.
Chris has already read it, but now comes the time where I force him to sit down with me and read it out loud. If a scene is extraneous or if any line does not sound like how a human being might actually express him or herself, it’s gone. No matter how poetic I thought I was when I wrote it – it has to go. Kill your darlings, so they say.
Meanwhile we are planning the most insane weekend possible for a week from now – in which we will shoot Cam Companion at night and shoot our Indie Go Go campaign during the day. This girl also needs new (albeit homemade) headshots and we also need a temporary poster for our feature.
Tiny issue – We still don’t have a title and have a week to come up with a working title for our fundraising. Maybe I’ll throw out some ideas and y’all can vote. We’ll see.
We’re also in the middle of casting for our feature, which, as it turns out, is as thrilling as it is nerve wracking (er- nerve wracking as it is thrilling). I’ve mostly only ever been on the actor’s side of things, and, now that I’m casting, I realize how much it’s an audition for the filmmaker as well. We met with some incredible actors in Door County (I will announce them soon, promise) and I just feel lucky that they were willing to meet with us in the first place. And yesterday we spoke with an actor via Skype. Who does this?? (Well, apparently that’s how Jennifer Lawrence auditioned for Silver Linings Playbook, but I don’t know how she did it – what a bizarre experience. A screen does not replace human connection. I do not care how great the video quality is).
By all accounts, I’m a rookie here, I’m happy to admit it. I’ve done a short film, I’m about to do another. I studied theater, have performed, have directed. But my list of credits is short. That said, I feel confident in story and in acting and in creating the most realistic performances possible in film with the collaboration of sweet and open actors. I just feel really grateful that these people want to make movies with us (for literally food and beer as payment).
And now that I’m admitting everything on here, can I say something else? The idea of running a crowdfunding campaign like Indie Go Go is downright scary. I didn’t want to do it originally. I still want to raise part of our funds through grants and am studying up on it now. But I believe that we can raise money for our film (“but what if we don’t???” the inner critic wails). We can make it fun. We’re already planning some silly and exciting prizes.
I believe this is going to be a beautiful movie. We’re gathering a talented and varied cast. We’ll be shooting in heaven (Door County). I read a story a couple years ago where the author talked about the millions of invisible hands of help surrounding this one character. I guess I’m keeping faith in that. We won’t be able to do this alone. Every single step is not without its challenges, but, hey, I’m up for it.
Here’s a vintage postcard from LA. I wish you all were here. My family’s coming to visit soon though. That’ll do. :-)