Good morning. It’s 6:20 AM in California. I’ve been up almost an hour now. I’m on coffee (that phrasing makes it sound like a drug – well, it is). In the past weeks I’ve come to the conclusion that this movie could honestly take forever to finish (if I allow it – read on). Just every slight, minuscule adjustment that needs to be made while editing the simplest conversation takes an enormous amount of time.
I find myself thinking about focus. Thinking about deadlines. As much as we love talking about focus in our society and getting things done (look at any Home Depot commercial), this film has been a whole other level of focus. As in a “shut out the rest of the world and make up for it later” kind of focus. Not the healthiest, but necessary (and it also means freedom from editing comes sooner rather than later….).
It reminds me of the hardest days (and nights) of college. When finally the door gets shut, when email gets ignored or forgotten, when you log yourself out of social media, when healthy eating comes to an abrupt halt (hey there, candy corn). It’s us and the movie – it’s time to face it.
Focus also means – log your hours. How many actual hours a day are going into the work? You (meaning “I”) really need to confront yourself sometimes when you’re trying to do creative work while actually making money at a day job (s). I’ve become really aware of this in our time back (about a month now). A lot of hours currently have to go toward working and keeping myself alive out here. They also have to go toward finding MORE work because I need it (anyone need a writing tutor in LA?). Fitting in time to write this script was tricky, let alone being in pre-production this spring while running an Indiegogo (which I would never recommend to anyone, ever). But this editing business is even worse. Because creative inspiration is no excuse to not do the work. You can always label clips. Tedious, but you can always do it.
So that’s where we’re at. Lots of staring at Final Cut Pro. Lots of occasional groaning aloud as I piece together a scene that I always inevitably wish was shot better than we knew how to do in the moment. And a lot of laughing, all by myself, at our actors. Such a talented, charming, hilarious group of people.
Every day, despite all this work, the overwhelm of it all – I’m so happy to be doing this. We’ve learned so much, we’ve taken enormous risks. We’re complete fools and we know it, but who cares. We’re on our way to finishing a movie. And we’ve already got a couple more movies that we’re planning in the next couple years.
I should also add a little P.S. which is that simultaneously we’re also (finally) editing together Cam Companion, a short film we made this spring. We’re hoping to knock that out as quickly as possible and start sending it out to festivals.
So there we are. As always, it’s a question of – how much does this movie matter? The truth is – it’s the most important thing in my life right now. That being, said, I’ll be at this computer for the rest of the day. See ya.