Well, we’ve been very quiet on social media these days and while part of that is because of our Indiegogo campaign hustle knocking us out, the main reason is that we’ve had zero internet in our apartment for what will be about two weeks pretty soon. [insert extremely boring story about switching companies and no open slot for installation available…blah blah blah]
But as annoying as it’s been to have to write long emails on our cellphones and to have to make to do lists for coffee shop and library visits, I have to say – it’s really been nice to not have the internet available at any moment. I’ve started to realize the depth of my addiction. So sad, but true, and I know I’m not alone. In moments of boredom, sadness, or just unplanned available gaps of time between tasks, I’ll go to my computer and check in. You know, look at the attractive and perfect lives on Pinterest and feel grossed out by fights on Facebook. ‘
And I can say it feels so good to have some space in my life. (And so often I ask myself in the middle of goofing around online – what am I looking for here? And am I finding it? The answer is so often no, and yet we keep clicking…)
It’s a seasonal change thing, it appears. After a majorly technical time working on the movie and staring into the MacBook for a solid month earlier this fall, we’ve been booted off the computer almost entirely.
I like seasons – scratch that, I love seasons. Always have. And not having seasons in LA is a major cause of depression for me out here in the fall. As someone who has always loved October I have really hated the month out here and three years in a row now, with our October days of 90 degree weather, I have gone into a depression over the lack of change. No crisp mornings, no sweaters (ahhhhh), no smell of burning leaves. It’s just the hottest, most awful part of summer and Halloween decorations.
It’s a dumb thing to complain about, but I need change.
We’re going through a different seasonal change right now ourselves with moviemaking. It’s quiet lately. I’m writing a new script – most mornings a week anyway. We’re watching movies (DVDs from the library! With special features! I love DVDs, let’s keep them, please? p.s. movies lately include – Life of Pi [oh my goodness, don’t even get me started], The Third Man, The Last Detail [just wonderful], Rosemary’s Baby, The Exorcist, and Two-Lane Blacktop. Can you tell Halloween happened in there?). I’m auditioning (blergh, I think I’d just rather make my own movies…I’m awful at auditions), tutoring, putting myself through a classical self-education (currently working my way through Don Quixote).
I like this quiet season, but this last week I’ve started getting really restless. June isn’t finished, and it’s time. I’ve put it off (the work left really isn’t thaaat much, but it’s enough to bother me). We’ve got a date scheduled to do a little bit of ADR for some of my lines and fix up a few more sound issues. I’m going to make just a few minor cuts. And I need to make the ending credits more professional. And we want to put FilmConvert on the whole thing so it has juuust the slightest grain like film.
It’s weird to be finishing the movie. It’s hard to explain. It’s not that it’s a letdown to be done, but there’s a hint of that. Going back to real life isn’t quite what I dreamed of. It’s a lot of…reality. A lot of day job stuff that I’m not enthusiastic about at all. A lot of questioning whether or not I really want to be auditioning (well, the answer to that is a resounding no, but do I want to be acting in films and getting paid? Absolutely. Well, there you go.).
Writing is helpful. Every day touching base with a new story keeps me going. It’s amazing, we think that we need great swaths of time to write and ponder in order to make something as big as a movie, and the truth about June is most days I only wrote for about half an hour in the morning. Granted, other days I spent about three hours. But most of the time it wasn’t more than 30 minutes. That’s where I’m at right now with the new script. Just short bursts. The mind needs space. At least mine does. I’ll write about that some other time. For now – we’re in a quiet season. I’ll let you know how it goes.