Well, hi. It POURED rain this morning and thundered and hailed and all of that and it was amazing. A good, healthy storm is just what we needed down here in LA.
This last week working with the movie has been challenging to say the least. I’ve made one final pass with edits and I’ve cut five minutes out of the movie in the last several days. It hurt at first, but it feels good. The movie feels cleaner and more polished. A sudden relief that I didn’t know I needed.
We also added a new song by Adam Mackintosh that is, oh my goodness, so perfect, gives such an amazing shot of adrenaline to the movie, that Chris and I both started laughing when we added it. I can’t say too much (you’ll see soon!!) – but it took a scene that I was starting to feel really unsure about and elevated it to a whole new level. I swear, the excitement of that addition got us through a weekend of a lot of otherwise kind of dull cuts and take changes and sound edits. We’re still so excited. (In fact, this is how the addition of every song in the movie has been – Lakeside Fire, Count This Penny, Big Mouth, Katie Dahl, Eric Lewis, Hans Christian, and Chris Irwin – we’d add the music and then watch the sequence over and over over again because everything has fit juuuuuuust right and we’re so, so lucky that these brilliant musicians shared their music with us.)
And that’s how making this movie has been. A lot of super dull, painful technical stuff (okay, this is me talking. A lot of people love technical stuff. I’d rather float off and think about feelings and colors and beautiful music all day) – meeting really gorgeous art. And the artful bits are what send you off in a rocket for the next few days, weeks, what have you, and then you get bogged down in the nitty gritty details of fixing room tones.
And, honestly lately I’d been feeling pretty down about the movie. Not depressed, not unhappy about it, just not excited (I’ve seen it so. many. times.) – and therefore working on it just felt brutal and plodding. And I’m also just dying to work on something else.
Look – I have zero perspective on this movie. I don’t even think I can or should give my opinion on the movie, probably ever. It changes day to day. Some days, it pains me to look at something that I wrote YEARS ago and that I acted in almost two years ago (!!!!). I’ve outgrown it. And yet, in all honesty, I love this movie more than anyone ever will. And I’m OBSESSED with our actors’ performances to the point where I don’t think anyone will notice all their subtleties in each take the way that I do (or watch them sooo many times).
What can you do? I don’t suspect I’ll work on it much more after this month (unless we get some kind of distribution deal, eh…?). It’s also really matter of fact – get the work done, then start something else.
So, that’s where we’re at. I’m daydreaming of the new script, gritting my teeth on the last bits of work on June, and riding the high of a new song. Onward.