Hey all. It’s been a big long time since I’ve actually blogged regularly. I haven’t had a lot to say that I wanted public and I’ve been putting more attention toward writing some new scripts. And I honestly think that’s more important. So that’s that.
I AM, however, very excited about our upcoming festivals for June Falling Down. Here’s a quick, easy reference:
– Twin Cities Film Fest– Oct. 20th @2:30pm and Oct. 28th @7:25pm (we’ll be at that one!)
– Flyway Film Festival – Oct. 22nd @3pm and @6:30pm
– East Lansing Film Festival – Nov. 5th @ 6:30pm
– Lone Star Film Festival – Nov. 12th @ 12:45pm (hoping to find a cheap flight to that one!)
We are so, so proud to be showing little June Falling Down at these festivals. It’s kind of shocking to look back at how many years have gone into this movie and now people are actually coming to see it all over the place. It’s profound and crazy and gives me hope.
On the other side of all of this, I’m really struggling with marrying the PR part of me and what I consider the real part of me that’s overly sensitive and creative and is better at drifting and making things. It’s very very awkward to switch between the two in my brain and I don’t feel like I’m doing a great job at it.
(new script! new script!)
So, awkwardly, this is the only kind of blog I can write. PR first and then some floaty thoughts.
So here’s what’s up these days. Warning, a little melancholic, a lot random.
- When I write lately, I listen to songs like this and light candles and pretend it’s actually a real October. I live in LA and it’s not October here despite what the calendar says.
- When I go on social media lately I feel like my heart starts shaking. There’s an awful lot of cruelty. It’s okay, some of it’s going in my next script. (Thanks guys!) But it’s still pretty rotten how people are treating each other this election season.
- We watched The Babadook last night and it was very silly (might not be quite the right word for it…but it also is) and also touching and this morning I’m thinking about it some more. It lives in the basement forever. It’s true.
- Bad weather gives you a place to put your sadness outside of yourself. I can’t handle all this LA sunshine. But I’m still here. We’ll see how it goes.
- We also watched the original The Taking of Pelham One Two Three last week and I loved it a lot.
- The colors of the next script are emerald and burnt sienna. The other script on hold is gray and rust red and overcast blue.
- I was listening to the song “Graceland” recently and I realized that this is my greatest artistic goal: heavy and light in the same work. And it’s so, so hard to do well. “Losing love is like a window in your heart. / Everybody sees you’re blown apart. / Everybody sees the wind blow.”
- I also felt this way when I saw Annie Baker’s Circle Mirror Transformation at Playwrights Horizons in 2009 and my jaw was on the floor from beginning to end. (Also I want to cast Chris in this someday…)
- I also felt this way when I saw the first episodes of The Office (American, sorry, I was behind on this one) when I was on an airplane coming home with mono in 2007. It was so genuinely mean and vulnerable and sweet. I forget how new this show felt to me and my family at the time. Comedy has shifted with it. I watched every episode a couple times that summer when I was too tired to walk around the yard more than once and I realized that my favorite moments are quiet moments and that those can still be funny and tragic.
- There is way too much going on with managing June Falling Down and trying to make money and trying to get a career going in acting and trying to write a new script or two and I’m really doing a bad job at managing it all lately. I’m living on faith and caffeine, but those run out. I can see why people quit, but I have no intention to and there’s nothing else I can or am willing to do. So….well, shit. I have to keep going.
- I’m wondering if maybe I should quit blogging. Maybe not yet but down the line I think I’ll have to stop. I can’t be cheerful every second about filmmaking (it’s really dang hard if you haven’t noticed) and I don’t really trust myself to not voice inappropriate complaints on the internet. I guess we’re all guilty of this nowadays. But it’s whether or not you follow through on it.
- I mean, come on LA, a little rain wouldn’t kill you.
See? I can’t do both happy go lucky PR and dark writer. So this blog might have to go. But for now, thanks for following along! Let’s keep battling for art and integrity in this world. Onward.