Hello from Rebecca’s crazy scatter-brain. There are a million to-dos and only if I slow down and say out loud what the priority is do I actually start to get things done. We’re heading out of town on Tuesday night for a red eye to Wisconsin. It’s gonna be 93 degrees today. I just went to a memorial service yesterday/it was our anniversary last night and I’ve got major whiplash. Did I mention it’s gonna be 93 today?
And honestly, it’s not even like I have that much going on right now this second, it’s just the getting out of town thing really. We’re doing our June Falling Down screening on Thursday and that’s super exciting, but it’s not a film festival, so, whew, it’s way easier than what we’ve been doing for other screenings.
I think it’s just that time of year where the brain needs to shut off for a little bit in order to find focus. I’m in a funny in-between place. I recently lost another source of income, LA’s way too hot to think, and, lucky me, this screening has given me a wonderful excuse to come to Wisconsin and hang out with my mom for the 4th of July (I haven’t been in the county for the 4th since I don’t know, 2012??).
So I’m doing perks (been making mobiles, paintings, packing up posters and mugs – you’ll get yours this summer, I promise, I got a system going – but no DVDs til this winter when we release officially :-/ ). I’m falling back into the script I was working on, I’m dreaming up some short films.
And I’m just also kind of wandering lately mentally. I think this is one of the hardest parts of being a person who makes stuff (or is trying to be a professional at that anyway), is the constant recalibration. Maybe it’s not the hardest thing, but it requires the most strategy, which is tricky. It requires you to step back and critique yourself pretty regularly and say, are these habits working? Am I actually getting done what I say I’m going to? What’s the absolute smartest next step business-wise/emotionally/financially? What’s worth taking a big risk right now, what is just shiny and exciting but not really worth the mental/time investment?
I’ve gotten especially distracted lately. I’m always scheming up new mini side jobs to make money (maybe I’ll write essays! maybe I’ll sell stuff on eBay!). Adding so many things to my to-do list that not enough gets done. And definitely not the important stuff.
And I know the next big thing is to finish the script. But I’m very very good at adding other less necessary tasks.
So. Back off. Hit refresh. Stop making to-do lists for a few days. And things will get back on track and you’ll stop chasing your tail.
Whew. Okay! Door County, here we come!
But first, pastries.