The sun rose again. Somehow we’re lucky enough that it keeps doing that. So good morning to you, wherever this finds you.
Like a lot of people, I’m feeling, well, so many things after yesterday. I spent the day alternating between heartbreak, helplessness, and rage. Mostly rage to be honest, for a lot of it. And then when I learned about Tom Petty I just broke down sobbing.
Everything is being said, so I don’t have much to add.
When we finally turned off the news last night, I made us watch something happy and romantic and distracting: Sabrina from 1995. I know, a lot of people hate that movie. I don’t care. I don’t care! I love that movie because I saw it when I was little and I was convinced that Julie Ormond was the most beautiful woman ever. And it’s Harrison Ford and Greg Kinnear. And it’s such a movie movie. And it’s what I needed.
I fell asleep halfway through, and woke up this morning to another sunrise, a lit candle, coffee, and my morning pages. And I felt a little better.
It keeps going. I hope you’re okay. But I know so many are not.
I’m one of the okay ones. I’m heartbroken, but I have strength right now. Yesterday I felt hopeless. I’ll probably keep feeling that sometimes. But I’m gathering myself together and I hope a lot of you can too.
There’s a lot of information out there, a lot of articles, a lot of videos, a lot of everything. I like Everytown for Gun Safety. If you’ve seen them mentioned a lot but have never looked into them, isn’t now the time?
Anyway. I still have a lot of rage. And it will probably go somewhere. Maybe into the next script (probably it will, it’s been brewing for a while).
And I have a lot of sadness. And I’ll change that into kindness, extra kindness. I’m trying, you’re trying.
Some of us are lucky enough that we get to keep trying. We’re lucky.
Here’s one of my favorite Tom Petty songs. Gather your strength today. That’s all.